Tuesday, May 02, 2006
Bring'em OUT Bring'em OUTBRING'EM OUT BRING'EM OUT......ITS HARD TO YELL WIT A DOUGHNUT IN YA MOUTH.
Ok ok so I haven't laid it down in a while....I mean li-ter-al-ly!!!!!!! Well, I am back, fine and on the go. Its me the Southern of ALL Flames. Yes, my light is burning stronger than ever and I am at ease with most things in my life. I am on a reading rampage and have started my own little book club with me myself and I. A Purpose Driven Life is a great book so far and it causes me to actually wonder about my true purpose. Am I here to just choose a career and live my life or am I here to please HIM. Its crazy. There is something that I must admit about myself. When things get hectic and I cannot control the things going on in my life, I try to control my weight. I mean,I dont throw-up or over eat, I just workout like crazy. I let my frustration out on the machines and next thing I know, I have 100+ pounds on the leg press, sweating like a hog on a hot summer day. I get lost in my own world of trying to excrete externally the stress that I am harboring internally. I cannot say whether this is a problem or not but I'll see... What I do know is that I am praying it.
Today, I said that I was kicking his so and so out of my life for good. I know, I know that I have said it a thousand times before but this time I mean it. I called him last night at 3am, cursed him out on his answering machine (I reviewed and erased at least 10 times, and sure I was a little tipsy but so what) and I let the truth flow out of me. This is my new start, I changed my number to my cell and I am through with him and every other bug-a-boo.
Healthwise, I have lost 15 pounds of fat. I weight train so I know that I have gained muscle mass. Right now I have 30% body fat, which is not too bad. I would rather be about 24-25%. BUT I DONT WANT TO LOSE THE BOOTY!!!!!! LAWD knows that I Black woman feels deserted without the ability to "look back at it, look back at it." That is FLorida music for ya BAE-BEE!!!! I can see the difference between my body 4 weeks ago and now. I had and have a very nice shape. I mean "DA BOIZ (men) LIKE IT!"
-sIZZLIN for sum summer fun,
Suthern Flame
